Sunday, October 20, 2002
Get Over It
A quiet weekend and Iím looking toward the week ahead. Last week was bad
for me. Circumstances had less to do with it than my disposition. I was
surly the entire week because I let things get to me. Mad about the things
that people say you should shrug off. ďDonít let it get to youĒ, ďGet over
itĒ and ďNo whiningĒ. I guess I got tired of all the clichť advice and
just decided to give in to my cranky mood. It was the kind of mood where
you wait for people to give you an opening to launch into a diatribe. Iím
good at diatribes though Iím not proud of that fact. Later, after Iím
done, I feel sorry for the poor victim who had to listen to my rant. It
hit me the other day while I was enumerating the injustices that have
occurred on the job since Iíve been there. The student worker I had
corralled hadnít been born when many of the inequities occurred. Time
to get over it!
Clancy in Pasture
A great day in
Southern California though I spent most of it on the computer. I'm outside
a lot at work so for me, I don't feel obligated to get out when at home.
1966 Ė Wednesday
Boy things arenít going so well. First of all I used to have a B average
now Iíve gone down to a D average. That usually happens around the end of
the year like this. I work all the other time but now Iím kind of tired.
Out of 20 points in Spanish I have 1. It infuriates me how Kirk, another
friend of mine, can sit in Spanish class and do nothing and still get a B.
But since I have Mr. Villar, I work and slave and still get an F.
Iíve been offered a job down at the hock shop theyíre building but every
time I go into talk to the boss heís not there.
One good thing happened yesterday anyway. A friend of my mothers said it
would be ridiculous to rent our house. Still we might fix up an apartment
in the back and rent that.
In reference to that girl I mentioned the last time. I think it was my
imagination. Sheís probably just a friendly girl who likes to talk. I I
canít think of any reason for a girl wanting to get to know me.
The weathers been pretty bad lately but itís clearing up. Maybe if itís
hot enough this weekend Iíll do some skin diving.
Itís funny but lately Iíve been in a strange mood. Iím tired of watching
television and sick of school but I still donít have time to do anything.
When I start to think, then I think about school, then I start to feel
guilty because Iím wasting time, so I try to do some studying.
Thank goodness tomorrow we have an assembly and morning classes are only
35 minutes long.