June 25, 1968 - Tuesday
So far this summer I've been
working part time at the vet hospital. I'm still trying to save some money
and I'd really like to buy a sports car before I start school in the fall.
Doctor Smith hired an
interesting girl to work in the back with us. Her name is Marlene,
she's about my age and apparently she was in jail for drug possession. She
looks and acts a lot like Janice Joplin. I
guess she's on parole and Doctor Smith is trying to give her a hand. She's
really funny and I enjoy hearing her talk about all her run-ins with
the law. She has a boy friend and I'm not really looking to get anything
started with her but she did say she would sell me some pot. I'm going
to taker her up on it when she gets some.
Ron really puts Marlene down
behind her back and he's always making jokes about her. I think Ron is
uncomfortable about my friendship with her. It's almost like he's jealous
and he doesn't want me to out distance him in "real life" experience. I've
been thinking a lot about people who pretend to be looking out for you when
they actually just want to hold you back. They don't really care about
you and they secretly fear that your life may turn out to be better than
theirs. They try to trip you up so they can feel better about
themselves. I get the feeling that's why father didn't let me buy
Doctor Smiths house and I don't think Ron, Kirk, Pat or Bill would really like to
see me succeed in anything I try. When you really look at them, people are
selfish and they view life as a competition. I'll admit to being selfish but
I'm really not into the competing thing.
Bill got fed up with his
mother today and left home. I helped him try to find an apartment but
we had no luck. I left him at the Safeway where he works and that was
the last I saw of him. His mother called up about an hour ago saying
she was calling the police and she asked me not to get involved.
July 21, 1968
Bill joined the Army and left
today for four years of service. I was pretty sad to see him go.
He's experienced a lot more than me and through him I learned a lot.
We were going to go to the same college and now I'm a bit lost. Besides Ron
who is a bit younger than me, Bill was the most normal friend I had. Before
he left he said he'd never forgive me if I manage to avoid the draft.
Guess he wants to make sure I end up suffering like he's going to.
I finally bought a sports car
last week. It's an Austin Healy Sprite and it was the cheapest one I
could find. Around $900. The day after tomorrow Ron and I are taking it for
a two week trip around Southern California.